studying has never been my habit-- even if there's an upcoming exam, quizzes or whatever

browsing my notes, memorizing, having a recap, analyzing things over and over

well, those are just waste of time.

yet. i was wrong.

sometimes, one must work hard and exert effort in order to achieve something.

still...

It can't be. I still cudn't accept the fact that I ws just 6th on the lists :(

em soo down + some confusing thoughts bother me. :[[

goal for now: avoid distractions and STUDY.