Bliss.

I don't know what to say.

Words aren't enough to convey what I truly feel for now.

HAPPINESS – a simple word and its profound meaning is the only existing emotion.

Just a while ago—

Being next to you while our hands were tightly clutched-on to each other is truly the best feeling I’ve ever felt. Having your face near mine whereas starring at each other’s eyes really could tell how deeply inlove we are

and...

how much we wanted this to last.

Knock you down.

“I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did.”

Sudden changes were occurring unpredictably these days and I didn’t even bother to notice when it all started. Some things were still left unclear and that there is something in me which I don’t really understand. I’m missing you terribly each day and being next to you is all I ever wanted. ;[

Aren’t you wondering? Everytime we get the chance to be alone together, time’s annoyingly running so fast. If and only we can stop time and temporary halt it for a long while then we could be happier. -_-

Your scent, your eyes and everything about you -- makes me fall completely. I love you more than yesterday and that tomorrow, I’ll probably love you even more.

Hoping.

I just want to be your ONLY ONE.

is this too much to ask?

-_-"

friends forever

“As we go on – we remember – all the times we had together and as our lives change, come WHATEVER – we will still be FRIENDS FOREVER”

Hearing music with its melancholy tunes when sadness suddenly transpires. Tears start to fall right away despite the fact that my mind is bounded with memories of the past. Memories, that whatever happens, will always remain engraved. No matter how much we long for it to occur for the second time, it won’t, certainly – it just won’t happen again. Distance doesn’t change anything since our friendship doesn’t end here yet.

Going back from the times when you were still here, I thought everything would be easy and that I’d still be better off even w/o your presence. Realization eventually comes across; thinking how else I could endure this gloomy night with just looking at those old photographs.

Sorry, I didn’t even get the chance to utter my last words however I unintentionally dropped off your call. Still, remembering those days how we used to giggle over silly things that we couldn’t even catch our breaths for laughing out so hard makes me smile a little. Moreover, I won’t forget the instance wherein we had sleepless nights just doing deadly business plan proposal for the sake of getting 3.5 or 4 and how we succeeded and a lot more...

I say, this friendship is incomparable, indeed. You’re more than a lover – a gift from God – so to say. Please, don’t weep my ever-loving-true friend; we, your real friends, are still here. Three years won’t be that long, trust me. We might have our own different tracks along this journey and might not see each other again; still good memories will always be treasured – FOREVER.

I will certainly miss you. Days... just won’t be the same again.

things do happen

"Everything happens for a REASON"

Tama naman d'ba. Tama nga ba? I don’t really know... ;(

Why why why oh why? Everytime I get too attached with someone, I always end up losing them. Seriously, why is that? I don't know. It happened many times in the past and until now, it's still happening. Sometimes I’m thinking of just getting myself isolated from people and avoid being too close to someone or to anyone. Why? I don’t want to fall completely. But, what else can I do? I’ve already fallen. Yeah, I am contented with what I am experiencing these days. Happiness seems to be overflowing and hopefully not to the extent wherein I’d encounter failure in the end. I hope not. I hope it's just the opposite of what I'm thinking. =(

TRUE FRIENDS are really hard to find. You might cross thousand of Islands; still, you won’t easily find a friend who’s willing to forgo particularly when you’re losing grip. I have lots of best friends and not all of them are TRUE. I mean, yeah. I label them as one because they’re merely the best over the others--- well, just the best. It's a lot different from a true friend.

Haay. Yeah. I happened to have a true friend back in HS and he used to be my outlet whenever I get depressed... but what just happened? He DIED. I didn't even get the chance to talk to him and somehow whisper my last words. See, that's one instance which I’m most scared at.

Now... I'm in college...I happened to have a TRUE friend for the 2nd time -- but what? She left and 3 years before she gets back yet without assurance at all. Sometimes, I just want to quit. Not in a suicidal way but I was thinking of giving up those important people in my life. Was that possible? Yes, right? “Nothing is impossible if you really want to.”

Now tell me... After this, would I still carry on?

Yeah. There's this someone who makes me happy all the time and that I LOVE that person so MUCH. Like, half of my life belongs to that someone.

I don't know what'll happen tomorrow. 2 days left and everything will just fall out. Yeah, i know it's not yet the end of our friendship still I’m missing her presence.

I'm gonna miss you =(

Need to be next to you.

Been running from this feeling for so long

Telling my heart I didn't need it

pretending I was better off alone

But I know that it's just a lie

so afraid to take a chance again

So afraid of what I feel inside

But I need to be next to you

I need to know I can see you smile each morning

Look into your eyes each night for the rest of my life

Right here with you is right where I belong

I lose my mind if I can't see you

Without you there's nothing in this life

That would make life worth living for

I can't make it if you're not there

I can't fight what I feel any more

Truly, I feel so empty when we’re not together. All I ever wanted was to stay right by your side whereas holding your hands in complete silence. Letting you go, I say, is total failure and would probably be the most awful mistake I could ever have. Just a day of not seeing you and not being next to you is like a day of waste.

I know this ain’t forever cause everytime I long for it - forever always fail me. So, I promise to make every single day worthwhile. I promise to love you in every best way I can and I'll keep on loving you until forever, hopefully not, reach its end.

take my heart

Finally, I have arrived with a decision that would possibly change my life. It doesn’t really matter whether I’d get hurt along the way. Nevertheless, all I ever longed for is the feeling of completeness -- an indefinable feeling whenever we’re together. Being next to you, close to you, while holding your hands in a soundless surrounding makes me shiver. Your smile, your tantalizing eyes and everything about you makes me fall inlove even deeper. I’m giving you my heart and it’s up to you on how you’ll take care of it. But please, be careful because it’s more fragile than what you think it is.

untitled

“We are twice armed if we fight with faith.”

Blogging has been my only outlet for times like this. I am so confused about things. Guess you were wondering why I never look straight into your eyes. Want to know why? So it won’t be hard for me to let go once I arrive with a decision that would perhaps fail me in the end.

I’m running out of words to say and neither do I know what was happening recently. Everything seemed to flow erroneously and now, I’m still bothered. Your LOVE is the only thing that pulls me back and TRUST is the only thing that keeps me going.

“The very moment I was holding your hand gives me courage to stay and hold on to you no matter what it takes.”

missing you

I wish I didn't have to MISS YOU.

If only you could be with me always. I know I could never be any happier. ;)

I know there is an ocean between us,
and I wish that it was not true,
for every day when I wake up,
I yearn to be with you.
Though a lot of distance lies between us,
you'll always be in my mind and in my heart,
And every night beneath the stars,
I pray for that one day

you and I will never be apart.

--you'll always be my one and only true love and this heart belongs to you completely--

i <3>

game of love

“You might get seduced by another person, but you can’t simply fall inlove if someone else has already taken your heart.”

06/21/09

What’s special about this date? You’ll never know and wouldn’t get any idea. But to give you a hint, it surely is the happiest day of my life. Does it ring a bell?

Well, feelings can die away as we all know but those are just feelings that are said to be untrue. Knowing the fact that you really love someone is like getting yourself involved in a battle field. You fight for your feelings nevertheless assurance upon winning is uncertain. This is when fate would play its role for once. It’s either you win the game because you fought harder or win because you were destined to. The point is both ideas should be combined together. Knowing the fact that you’re in battle is because your target is victory. Whether you admit it or not, there’s always someone you would want to fight for and that someone surely plays a big role in your life.

Part of love is sacrifice. You let go of it no matter how much you wanted to hold on just so someone won’t get hurt. Most lovers FAIL because of wrong decisions or because there’s always someone else involved. For love is always a choice. Go for someone you really LOVE and prove you exist cause words can always be deceiving.

You know it hurts so much whenever you question my feelings for you. How many times do I have to prove it and when will you ever believe me? When feelings are already gone? Or when the only word I could utter is ---- STOP?

If you may not notice, I sacrificed a lot of things for you... a lot of THINGS, indeed. I am not asking for anything in return. Still, I’m thankful for whatever reasons. Ever since you enter my life, you really changed my whole perception about things. You taught me how to LOVE and be patienct. I know we’re not committed but I’m giving you the right to control my life.

CONFUSION. It always bothers me but at this very moment, all I want to do is just hug you tight, hold your hand until everything that were remained unclear would finally be given answers.

*no one could ever take your place in my heart – you’ll always be my only love*

whatever it takes

"..Maybe the reason why we don't admit how special someone is, because we don't want to deal with the reality of pain when we lose it...”

auugh. So true. :[

This is like my first blog entry for the month of July. So, what’s new? Nothing...

Every day remains unchanged. However, tomorrow is another day either to be treasured or be cursed. It still depends on how it will turns out at the end of the day.

Most of us would agree that life, indeed, can be so cruel at times. Hearing the maddening sound of thunder reminds me of a certain consequence wherein I’m most scared at. Still, I got no choice but to accept whatever it is that might come about.

I don’t know what I am talking about and surely got no clue either.

After all, it’s always you. No matter how I push myself forward along with forgetting those foot prints, I really can’t help myself but gaze back and hold on.

Every moments I had with you is worth remembering. As long as there’s a possibility, I’d never hesitate to grab every opportunity to just be with you. I know that every time we get a chance to be alone, silence always takes place. Yes, silence wherein I feel secured.

With those moments of silence, all I want to do is hold your hand for you to know that I won’t let go of this feelings.

I will always love you -- whatever it takes.