I wish there's a kind of LOVE that doesn't break hearts. . . ='|
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Sunday, September 12, 2010
you can't do anything to stop this heart from loving you this much.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Monday, August 30, 2010
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Monday, August 23, 2010
...
a lot things happened these past few days. unexpected incidents that i never thought would create such bad impact in my entire existence. i don't understand why all those important people in my life are not meant to stay with me. they will enter my so-called life and will leave me afterwards. it hurts to know that it's so easy for them to let me go. =(
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Friday, July 23, 2010
Monday, July 12, 2010
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Monday, June 28, 2010
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Monday, June 7, 2010
Friday, June 4, 2010
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Friday, May 28, 2010
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Friday, May 21, 2010
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
it's time to forget... EVERYTHING. :)
to whoever will take my place in your heart,
i hope she won't hurt you just the way i did.
you'll always be special. but to think of the current situation,
it's better if I leave.
GOOD bye :)
**memories will never be forgotten**
Monday, May 17, 2010
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Something to deal with.
There are occurrences in life that happens unexpectedly. It's like yesterday, you learned to love and the next day, you never loved at all. That's one reason why I had my mind be preoccupied by tons of questions that surely won't be given answers. Once true love hits you, you'll never get away with it. Even if you try to bury all the memories and keep them out of your mind, there will always come an instance that will remind you of them. sometimes, it's when confusion starts to take place. but it won't be necessary to bring back what you've lost and hold on to those things you've once let go. that'd be unfair.. keep in mind that there are things that do come and go or should I simply say, temporary. the only way to find happiness is acceptance and satisfaction. :)
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Saturday, May 8, 2010
my apologies
For every painful words I uttered, my apologies to you. Hurting you was never really my intention. I'm not who you think I am -- a bad person. or whatever you think of me. My fault. Getting jealous even if I no longer have the right... this is one thing I should avoid for now.
I'm quite sure you got hurt big time with my harsh words but for you to know, my heart almost died.
Knowing you're in deep pain weakens my heart that I can barely breathe. With a sincere heart, please take this word; SORRY. Yes, my dearest special someone. I'm sorry for hurting you.
Knowing you're in deep pain weakens my heart that I can barely breathe. With a sincere heart, please take this word; SORRY. Yes, my dearest special someone. I'm sorry for hurting you.
I don't think I still have the courage to talk to you after everything. I deserve to be treated like nobody. Still, thank you for being my so-called "angel" ;)
I have no regrets.
Friday, May 7, 2010
FEBRUARY=THUG
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone.A real speed demon. Has more than one best friend. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
That hit me big. But I feel like were both standing here doing nothing. And I can’t not do anything. I don’t quit. But this situation, that blog post, I don’t know why I can’t help myself..but quit.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
wag mo hayaan mawala yung bagay na alam mong mag-papasaya sayo. :)
kahit bilang kaibigan..hindi kita hahayaang mawala. aalagaan kita at patuloy na papasayahin.
Saturday, May 1, 2010
move on :)
How do I end up in the same old place
Faced again with the same mistakes
So stubborn, thinking I know what is right
But life proves me wrong every time
Taking roads that lead me no where,
How do I expect to get there
But when will I learn to just put you first
I come to you now when I need you
But why do I wait to come see you
I always try to do this on my own
But I was wrong, cause only with you
Can I move on (can I move on)
When I am weak, it's you that makes me strong
And I know that you've been with me all along
So many times I forget to close my eyes
And listen to my heart
With you, life is so easy
Why do I make it hard
Oh, taking roads that lead me no where,
How do I expect to get there
When will I learn to just put you first
I, I come to you now when I need you
But why do I wait to come see you
I always try to do this on my own
But I was wrong, cause only with you
Can I move on
I'll get out of my own way,
Let you have your way
Cause I realized I'm no good on my own
I'm there for you, I'll serve for you
I can't live without you
I come to you now when I need you
Why do I wait to come see you
I always try to do this on my own
But I was wrong, I was wrong, I was wrong,
With only you, only you, with only you
Can I move on, can I move on, can I move on
It isn’t possible to love and part. You will wish that it was. You can transmute love, ignore it, muddle it, but you can never pull it out of you. I know by experience that the poets are right: love is eternal. :)
Friday, April 30, 2010
:)
we're both moving forward w/different directions;
but surely, memories will never stop reminding us about the things that we've gone through.
all those ups and downs, how we tried to hold on, how we fought the battle and won.
there'll be changes for sure,
what had happened in the past might never happen again--
but truly, you will never be forgotten.
you've once became a part of me.
how you took my heart away and became the only reason why it's beating.
but now, something came up and there's no other way out..
i'm stuck in here already and perhaps--there's no use fighting..
acceptance is the only way i know
and guess i'll just consider the fact that nothing lasts forever.
but don't take all the bad sides of me.
after all that happened, after everything --
it's my turn to give you all the gratitude that you deserve.
I've loved you more than anything else,
more than I could ever imagine..
as what I'm always telling you, you were my first TRUE love..
my first heartache..
to be honest, as I keep uttering those words that would hurt you,
my soul's dying.. my heart's hurting.. my mind's wanting to explode.
i miss you. i miss you so bad..but I no longer have the right to say these words..
i still wanna tell you "i love you"..but the situation will just get worse.
so I better stop myself and bury my feelings together w/ those memories we had.
i've never been good at expressing myself..
kahit malayo ako sayo, kahit hindi na tayo magkita, kahit wala ng pag-asa,
tandaan mo, mahalaga ka rin sakin, iniisip parin kita..umiiyak parin ako gabi gabi dahil sayo. :)
mamimiss ko lahat lahat.
i will never get tired playing your favorite songs..
yun lang un makakapagpaalala sakin sayo. mahal kita pero hanggang dito nalang ee.:)
masakit parin ngayon. pero kelangan magpretend..ayaw kong malaman mo un totoong nararamdaman ko.
shit.hirap na hirap na ako pero kaya natin to :)
sabi mo nga, hanggang dito nalang storya natin.
*crying*
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Monday, April 26, 2010
true love.
There will always be one thing that would remind me of you, one thing that I've never learned from my past relationships. That is -- "TRUE LOVE".
This is the toughest decision I've ever encountered. You know, I never want us to be JUST-FRIENDS. I've been through ups and downs several times before I had the chance to officially call you mine. But to think of how you just ended up everything, really hurts me big time. Not just me, but both of us..
Avoiding you will never be easy for me. It's like, I've been hit by a truck 10 times already yet i'm still alive. as i'm writing this very last entry about you, hindi ko mapigilan umiyak. The pain I'm feeling right now is hundred times painful than of hurting myself physically.
Remember, I'm not doing this dahil may iba na, alam ko, pinag-isipan ko mabuti to before I sleep and pagkagising ko. As I checked my phone, tinignan ko kun sino un mga nagtext. Nun tinignan ko, puro messages mo. Sinubukan ko matulog ulit then nung nagising ako, i checked my phone for the second time. Nagtext na yung isa. Wala akong nireplyan. Hinayaan ko pareho. Hindi ko na pinansin phone ko. iniwan ko nalang sa room instead. then nag-isip ako habang nakikinig ng music sa ipod, shuffle mode. biglang nagplay "incomplete". naiyak ako. ='( biglang nagflash back lahat lahat ng happy moments natin together. bigla akong tumakbo sa room, kinuha un phone and nireplyan ka w/ a blank message. There, I realized na ikaw parin ung hinahanap hanap ko. Shit. ang hirap. Ako na un nag-decide, yet, every minute hindi ko paring mapigilan tignan un phone ko and magexpect na makita un name mo sa inbox ko. And pag nakita ko na nagtext ka, sobrang excited ako basahin yun. ;'|
Now, i don't know what to do anymore. Naiisip ko lang, at this very moment, is to return this life God has given to me.. what's the point of living if the only reason why I still hold on is already gone.
Stop wasting your time. Wag mo na akong hintayin. Hindi dahil wala ka nang babalikan but because I'm not worthy. Wag kang umiyak. Mahal na mahal parin kita. :)
i love you, goodbye.
"I Love You, Goodbye"
Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you
Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Baby, its never ganna work out
I love you, goodbye
Sunday, April 25, 2010
goodbye.
I won't use my phone anymore or might just change number instead.
I'll delete everything that reminds me of you.
Memories will surely hurt me.
I will miss calling you baby.
10 - 2 = 8 .This is how it ends.
You won't hear my voice again.you won't see me again.
you won't hear anything from me again.
Goodbye my one true love.
np: one last cry.
I love you.. for the last time. :)
While I was reading her latest blog entry, I can't help myself but cry.. It's not important for her to know how much tears I shed. But to see the current situation, how someone is suffering from pain just because of my stupidity, that is something i cannot stand anymore.
I always wish I have the strength to fight for my own stand but instead of doing so, I just end up crying.. crying w/ endless tears that would never seem to stop. Thinking of how else should I cheer myself is no longer possible without her by my side. I need her; her warm embrace, her hands and her smile. Those are the only things I know that could soften my heart and could give me more than enough courage to hold on.. but there's a big wall between us. No matter how hard I try to climb that wall, even if I'm nearly reaching the top and only one step from holding her hands , as my fragile heart starts to complain, I end up losing myself and fall again..
Tell me, how long will this confusion swallow my way-of-thinking and how else will I survive from this misery. I don't wanna get stuck in this situation forever. If only I have the power to control other people's mind and if only I could press rewind and pause the happiest moment I had w/ you..I might just wanna stay there forever. But neither of my thoughts would come to reality. Everything's said and done. All I could ever do now is deal with every circumstances that may come along and let God control the rest of it.
I love you.. I still love you.. It's just this confusion thing gives me the idea that I don't -- anymore. but try to look deeper and perhaps, you'd notice my heart waiting for you to complete its beat. just like old times.
I'm sorry. But for now, I must go with the flow.. there's nothing left with me.. my heart and my mind has been carried away. I can't see any ray of hope anymore. Even your presence has been taken away from me already and even if I scream my lungs out just for you to hear me, nothing will ever happen.
I'm getting weaker each day, I almost forgot how strong I was before from the very moment I had you...
Sana panaginip nalang lahat..
Sana magising na ako..
Thursday, April 22, 2010
I still love you, I'm pretty sure about that.
But I don't know until when these feelings would stay here.
I really want this relationship to work,
but to think of the possibilities that may happen --
I'm starting to lose hope.
1 month w/o seeing you is quite long..
long enough for me to think and decide for myself.
it's about choosing between letting go and holding on.
should I just let go of everything and start a new beginning w/o someone else I don't love?
OR should I fight for my feelings and hold on?
I NEED ANSWERS. :(
Friday, April 16, 2010
nag-uumpisa na ang laban. shit. kaya ko toh. T_T
ayaw ko maggive up. hindi ko kayaa! pero kung talagang kelangan na, wala na akong magagawa.besides okay na lahat.masaya na siya. :)
my last words.
Nun dumating ako sa life mo, andaming nasira, andaming nag-bago, nagkagulo lahat..Sorry..hindi ko intention na mangyari lahat lahat yun.. I didn't even expect na mamahalin kita. We've been through a lot at dahil dun pareho tayong natutong lumaban, maging strong and most of all, natututo tayo magmahal ng totoo. you weren't my first. I've encountered a lot in my past relationships pero iba un naramdaman ko ngayon.ibang iba. ngayon lang ako umiyak ng sobra sobra, almost everyday, i even attempted to kill myself...you've changed me big time!
dami mong sinacrifice for me and now is my chance to thank you for everything.while i was typing my thoughts, at this very moment, naiiyak ako.hindi ko alam kung bakit. hindi ko mapigilan. siguro kasi mahal na mahal kita and i don't even know how else would I prove it..why? kasi WEAK ako. hindi ko kayang lumaban.sabagay.wala naman akong ipagmamalaki.
I'm happy..yes..I'm happy for you..lahat ng nawala, lahat ng nasira, ngayon ayos na lahat..alam ko masayang masaya ka na ngayon. lahat ng nawala sayo, nabalik na...Thank God! just ignore me.I'll be fine. sobrang nappressure na ako sa parents and others..and wanna know the painful part of everything? na instead tulungan mo akong lumaban/ maging strong, you're giving me all the reasons to lose hope.. I've never liked anyone else. I've never been this serious and faithful..
I get jealous easily, konting makita ko lang, nagseselos na ako. but I've no right to complain kasi wala naman akong kwenta.tama. masaya ka na.hindi mo na ako kelangan ngayon.masaya ako kasi I've had the chance to hug you tight and said those three words though I get nothing from you.. nasungitan pa! :'( naiinis ako sayo! nagseselos ako ky kristine, sakanya and naiinis ako bakit hindi mo ako maintindihan..pero this is not the time para magalit..I'm not saying goodbye however, I'm just giving you freedom. -- I'm not letting you go, I'm just giving you time to be happy not just w/ me but w/ other people..
MAHAL NA MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA more than my life.. I'll wait for you..I won't look for anyone else..you own my heart...
YOU'RE FREE! I'll see you soon -- my life.
dami mong sinacrifice for me and now is my chance to thank you for everything.while i was typing my thoughts, at this very moment, naiiyak ako.hindi ko alam kung bakit. hindi ko mapigilan. siguro kasi mahal na mahal kita and i don't even know how else would I prove it..why? kasi WEAK ako. hindi ko kayang lumaban.sabagay.wala naman akong ipagmamalaki.
I'm happy..yes..I'm happy for you..lahat ng nawala, lahat ng nasira, ngayon ayos na lahat..alam ko masayang masaya ka na ngayon. lahat ng nawala sayo, nabalik na...Thank God! just ignore me.I'll be fine. sobrang nappressure na ako sa parents and others..and wanna know the painful part of everything? na instead tulungan mo akong lumaban/ maging strong, you're giving me all the reasons to lose hope.. I've never liked anyone else. I've never been this serious and faithful..
I get jealous easily, konting makita ko lang, nagseselos na ako. but I've no right to complain kasi wala naman akong kwenta.tama. masaya ka na.hindi mo na ako kelangan ngayon.masaya ako kasi I've had the chance to hug you tight and said those three words though I get nothing from you.. nasungitan pa! :'( naiinis ako sayo! nagseselos ako ky kristine, sakanya and naiinis ako bakit hindi mo ako maintindihan..pero this is not the time para magalit..I'm not saying goodbye however, I'm just giving you freedom. -- I'm not letting you go, I'm just giving you time to be happy not just w/ me but w/ other people..
MAHAL NA MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA more than my life.. I'll wait for you..I won't look for anyone else..you own my heart...
YOU'RE FREE! I'll see you soon -- my life.
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np: good bye
I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have much more
I can feel your heart and I simpathize
And I'll never criticize
All you've ever meant to my life
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
i don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye
You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure i'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
i don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say goodbye
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np: good bye
I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have much more
I can feel your heart and I simpathize
And I'll never criticize
All you've ever meant to my life
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
i don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye
You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure i'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
i don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say goodbye
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as you read this, i don't want even a drop of tear from your eyes to fall down.--please don't say goodbye --- don't ever think that there's someone else --- just let me take the consequence -- let me hurt myself for now -- let my soul die -- i love you.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Monday, April 12, 2010
hurting
no wonder why there are people who commit suicide.now i know the feeling.
sabay sabay problema.sa family and sa lovelife.anhirap pag hindi pinapaniwalaan un sinasabi mo.sawang sawa na ako umiyak.i've been crying all day, trying to recall those good times, happy memories we had together.but to think of the current situation we're facing (referring to someone) , nakakapanghina.lalo na pag alam mo na mahal na mahal mo un tao pero hindi mo magawang pag-laban kasi natatakot ka sa possibleng mangyari.pressure sa parents, sa sibling and cousins.nakakabaliw!if only i could be independent enough to leave this place para magawa ko un gusto ko.un walang pumipigil sakin.walang nagccontrol. i'm in need of freedom.now, i don't know what to do.gusto ko maging fair.gusto ko mawala.gusto ko lumayo sa mga taong mahal ko.gusto ko mag-isa.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Friday, April 2, 2010
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
“Love means holding onto someone just as hard as you can because if you don’t, one blink and they might disappear forever."
just don't let them feel the TOO MUCH part.
just don't let them feel the TOO MUCH part.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Lord, you make me fall inlove with you even deeper. ♥
Left my fear by the side of the road
Hear You speak and won't let go
Fall to my knees as I lift my hands and pray
Got every reason to be here again
A Father's love that draws me in
All my eyes want to see is glimpse of You
All I need is You
All I need is You, Lord
Is You, Lord
One more day and it's not the same
The Spirit calls my heart to sing
I'm drawn to the voice of my Saviour once again
Where'd my soul be without your son
He Gave his life to save the earth
Rest in the thought that you're watching over me
Left my fear by the side of the road
Hear You speak and won't let go
Fall to my knees as I lift my hands and pray
Got every reason to be here again
A Father's love that draws me in
All my eyes want to see is glimpse of You
All I need is You
All I need is You, Lord
Is You, Lord
One more day and it's not the same
The Spirit calls my heart to sing
I'm drawn to the voice of my Saviour once again
Where'd my soul be without your son
He Gave his life to save the earth
Rest in the thought that you're watching over me
Saturday, March 27, 2010
"Kung natitiis niyang hindi magparamdam kahit isang araw lang, walang alinlangang makakaya ka niyang iwan kahit kelan" - forwarded quote
tama. tama. :))
tama. tama. :))
unexplainable.
I look into your glittering eyes,
and I see the reflection of everything I am.
I think about you often,
and I wonder what you think about.
I wonder what you like & don’t.
Each time I see you again, I can’t breathe.
You make me speechless and I want to stay in your eyes forever.
When I cannot speak words,
you simply give me a perfect, brilliant smile,
and yet again,
I am breathless.
From the first moment I saw you,
I knew that there was something different about you.
Your beauty shocks me,
I fall down in surprise.
I can’t believe you’re in my life.
Something so delicate,
yet so far away.
Something so beautiful,
but hidden away.
The reason I feel this way,
there’s no rational explaination.
I don’t understand it.
All I really know is I feel so much for you,
and I hope you will too.
i love you always, this feelings i have in me is unexplainable. :O
Friday, March 26, 2010
"Vacation ain't fun when it means not seeing someone for a long time ."
sooo true. : | everyone longs for vacation -- but me -- no . I'd rather be caught up with so many things ; projects , paper works , home works , exams etc. than have fun without even seeing the one I love. but life isn't always fair. i mean, it's not always getting what you want and deciding for yourself. sometimes, you have to deal with every situation and get use to it.
weh.i don't wanna think about it yet><
your smile , your gentle kiss , your warm embrace , your lovely face , your sweet voice --- you just made me fall inlove with you all over again . . ♡ =">
Feels like, I'm standing in a timeless dream
Of light mists, of pale amber rose
Feels like, I'm lost in a deep cloud of heavenly scent
Touching, discovering you
Of light mists, of pale amber rose
Feels like, I'm lost in a deep cloud of heavenly scent
Touching, discovering you
I love you, always forever
Near and far, closer together
Everywhere, I will be with you
Everyday, I will devour you
Near and far, closer together
Everywhere, I will be with you
Everyday, I will devour you
Say you'll love, love me forever
Never stop, not for whatever
Near and far and always and
everywhere and everything
Never stop, not for whatever
Near and far and always and
everywhere and everything
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Monday, March 22, 2010
jealousy .
They say jealousy is the reason for hate . Well almost . Sometimes you gotta let go of every feeling you have . People that matter , keep ‘em close , but don’t hold too tight . Just let whatever comes , come in , and whatever leaves , leave . Don’t hold on to something that’s not trying to climb back up . They go on their own , they can climb back on their own . If they stay , they stay , don’t lock ‘em up in your cage , cause all they would want to do is try to escape . I’m not talking about anything in specific . Just random . I think there are times when we treat some people with too much special treatment and we forget about the rest . Sorry -__-. FAIRness status from now on.
fail .
non-stop predictions . lots of signs that he’s already coming . still , no one really knows exactly WHEN this world would end .
i don’t believe about the 2012 prediction . okay, the mayan calender said that the world is going to end in 2012 , but historians have found out that due to miscalculations , the world was so called supposed to end in 1995 . the mayans also said that the world began in 100 B.C. , so including that fact , the world should have ended already . guess the miscalculations were wrong , anything can happen tomorrow, today, who knows ?
im wondering how people will react when the year finally comes around . :3
we are living in a period of time that is of overwhelming interest to all . even with all the signs that are taking place , there are many people who scoff at the idea that this world will come to and end . yes it surely will . but only GOD knows when and what he wants us to do is -- get ready .
the Bible , and the Bible only , gives us the correct view of these things . and it will reveal the great and final scenes of the history of our world .
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Saturday, March 20, 2010
I’ve been looking for real happiness for a long time when a realization finally stopped me from doing so... As I opened my heart and looked from within, while thinking of the main reason why it's still beating...and just as how I considered reality... all I've gone through... how I survived the challenge and succeeded… perhaps, I'd know that at the rear of those accomplishments, beside God , someone existed and became an inspiration... without doubts, I can proudly say, real happiness is simply YOU my dearest...
I love you so much .... <3
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Monday, March 15, 2010
It’s the silence that tells it all . Sometimes , it’s not about the yelling and the tears . All it takes is for two people to sit beside each other and feel that something is wrong , that what was there before isn’t there anymore . That they’re miserable when they’re apart but they’re worse when they’re together . And that there are 2 options left . Either they sit still and ignore the pain , or one of them gathers enough courage to stand up and walk away . Nooo . ; ]
Sunday, March 14, 2010
You know that quote, “dont prioritize someone when you’re just another option to them?” Sometimes, I doubt myself and kind of feel that way. Is that so wrong? Right now I’m feeling so shitty. Again, I became who I was before.. what they said about me before, and how I swore I wouldn’t be that person, because the reason why I ended up the way I am today is ‘cause of how and what happened in the past; how I let things idk.. how I just didn’t care about anything else except the only thing I did. Have you ever felt like you tried so hard for something, and at the very end, at the very end of it all, when you hoped that what you tried and worked hard for was going to pay off, but really in the end, it just wasn’t noticed at all, wasn’t appreciated, or anything. And then you look back, and notice that the people and the things you didn’t pay attention to along the way, the things and the people you didn’t realize you pushed away or suddenly lost, were the ones who were only thinking of you, only for you to let them down. All I’m sayin’ is.. you just don’t know what you got ‘til it’s gone…or at least ..til it suddenly doesn’t reply to your text messages, answer your calls.. or laugh at some really funny quote sent randomly. I’m sorry. I’m sorry I became this person. I’m sorry that again, I let the thing that manipulate me into my feelings. I’m sorry for being a jerk. emoting for no reason . HAHA . I LOVE YOU !! ;)
Friday, March 12, 2010
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Living involves tearing up one rough draft after another.
You can try to re-write, re-do, erase parts of this little paper you call life. But your paper will never be perfect. The parts you’ve tried to change are now smudged, smeared & not what you pictured it to be. The best thing to do, is to tear up that paper, throw it away, and grab a fresh new one. To start over, on a clean page and try your best on it. If your mistakes are repeated, do it over until you’ve reached what you believe is possibly “perfect”.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Running from myself until, you gave me a reason to stand still
It’s hard you know ? It’s hard to have someone walk out. It’s hard to cry over them. It’s hard to feel that aching feeling in your heart for them. It’s hard to think about them constantly. It’s hard to miss them. But then you start to forget. Oh, not the memories quite yet. But the feelings. The feelings of happiness. The feelings of being loved. The feelings of being accepted and admired. But it’s hardest when they come back. And nothing’s the same. And they make you realize, why you cared so much about them in the first place. They make you remember the feelings, once again. They make you remember what used to be so perfect, and what can never be again. It hurts. When something so precious, can be so lost. It hurts. When you wish you could turn back time and actually appreciate every second of it while it lasted. Walang ma-blog. :D
Monday, March 8, 2010
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Friday, March 5, 2010
There are people who deserve you and people who don’t. If you have someone in your life who takes you for granted or doesn’t give you the respect that you deserve, leave them in the past where they belong. Surround yourself with people who challenge your mind and bring out the best in you. As for the ones who only exist to bring you down or cheapen your potential; let them find people who are better-suited to their own qualities and principles. Hold yourself to the highest standard possible. People who don’t measure up don’t deserve your time. People who can’t see past their own cowardice or their own arrogance don’t deserve your time. Anyone who doesn’t treat you the way you treat yourself doesn’t deserve your time. And if you are treating yourself in a way that gives people permission to take advantage of you, start showing yourself the exact same respect that you should be demanding of everyone else. You’re really worth more than you give yourself credit for. It’s time that you start making sure people recognize that.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
:)
"Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation."
"I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be."
"Some strangers become more important to you than family, maybe because you’re not expected to love them. You can leave them whenever you want to. Every moment together is a choice."
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
one of those nights.
Sometimes, when you find it real hard to trust someone but you are in denial because it’s hard to believe that the people you love are the ones hard to trust, you are placed in a situation where you don’t know what to really believe, or why you choose to hurt yourself by trusting them even though you know they are shielding you out of their environment. The thing about being in denial is that it helps you portray things the way you want to see it.. or portray people the way you want to see them, that they are the person you want to believe they are… to the point where you are the one whose lying to yourself. To the point where you show your emotions, away from the shadows, and into the light, like cutting yourself open to someone and showing them what you feel inside about how much we trust them and how it hurts to see how much respect they have for that trust. It’s all Selfish. Yet we are the ones to blame because we trusted and trusted, and let things go when they shouldn’t have been. It’s time to face your fears and avoid the stage of denial. Face it. Because if you don’t.. you’re gonna spend everyday, every moment, every second, wondering and doubting…. not having a certain answer for anything until proven, not through your precious trustworthy people, but with your own ears, your own eyes, you yourself… until we begin to wonder why it was worth trusting, why it was worth giving our time to trust, putting ourselves out there to be taken advantage of. You see, trust is important. Without that, there’s nothing but secrets and hidden communication. You try your best to make sure they trust that you won’t get mad at anything they do or they think you will get mad at.. so you try and hold in your emotions so that they will never have to feel like they have to keep anything from you.. but you don’t know that they will or they wont..you just gotta trust.. and beyond that.. there’s nothing more. You can forgive them however many times they apologize, and its up to you whether to trust the apology or simply take away your trust for them.. through constant repetition I think it’s time to stop listening to the “im sorry’s”… it’s tiring..
These three words seemed to be so ORDINARY. Like you always get this message from me many times in a day. To tell you, it’s not just I feel like saying this whenever I want to but there’s no other way I could ever express these feelings I have in me.
Sometimes, I get to have this hard feeling such as missing you so bad wherein I long too much for your presence, crave for your warm hug and also your gentle kiss. however, what shall I do ? there are times when “thinking of you and those lovely moments we had together” are the only ways I knew to somehow be satisfied and feel better.
You know, for 7 months of having you in my life, expect for a lifetime commitment. However, it’s still up to you on how you are going to handle this relationship despite my imperfections. To be honest, hurting you for quite some time has never been my intention. ;| of course, there’s nothing else I would wish for, but the best, all the best, for you my dearest.
I won’t get tired and i will never be tempted by anyone else. as what I’m always telling you, you are my only one, my only happiness.
Just promise me your love won’t fade. and in return, I’ll love you with all I am. =]
Sunday, February 28, 2010
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