2010 :]

HAPPY 2010 =]

2009 has been a great occurrence for me compared to the preceding years. It’s just that, measureless experiences taught me or aid me, rather, in becoming a better entity. For once in my entire existence; I learned to love unconditionally, got hurt shoddily wherein the deepest part of me is yet unhealed, I’ve become stronger, I had my first kiss, I’ve fallen completely, I’ve given myself – my life and I’ve changed for the better.

In reality, happiness is always impermanent because every smile is accompanied by wretchedness and melancholy feeling. Every year, someone is destined to leave and again, some time in 2009 I lost someone really important to me. But -- my life doesn’t end here and probably wouldn’t end here yet. : )

hoping 2010 would be a vast experience.

***I loved you yesterday, I'm loving you today and i'll still love you tomorrow. :)***

i miss you so much my life. =<

haven't gone online for days. I'm enjoying the break so far but --

i really miss YOU so bad. =[

wow! can't believe I'm finally done w/ school days. college life's almost over, thank God. what a relief. ill no longer worry about getting low grades or maintaining a grade of 3.0 and above. however, i feel sad at the same time. my dream of seeing my name on the list-of-honors will never happen not unless I concur w/ my parents' decision and that is to study abroad. I was thinkin about it lately, i mean, having a second degree would be great. I really dream of becoming a doctor (pediatrician) someday but there are so many what if's. nevermind those. i'll just follow his will. he won't fail me. =]

friday :)

I LOVE THIS DAY. ♥

it's all because..

I'd rather lose everything than not have you in my life. : )

you are my only happiness.

my life, my everything, i love you.

Some time ago

I received a special gift,

and it came in the form of you,

my friend.

You are so important to me,

and I want to thank you

for all the wonderful memories.

Whenever I see you,

I am reminded of myself.

Whenever I think of you, I am reminded

of all the good times we've had.

Together we've done so much,

seen so much, and felt so much.

With a knowing smile,

I look back at the shared times

and all the things only you and I know.

With high hopes and great expectations,

I look ahead to the future

and all the things only you and I

will share.

You not only put a smile on my face,

you put a smile in my heart.

You will always be my friend.

I WILL SURELY MISS YOU :(

now playing

breathless - Nelson



Fade away - Jay Sean



Officially yours - craig david

december 2, 2009

...

I should be happy atleast for today.

I want to forget everything; pain, sadness, misery etc.

gonna make this day extra special on my own way.

nothing but an option.

I'm just an OPTION and I must accept that. : )

selfish.

I just don't understand
Why you're running from me BABY
Why you wanna turn your back on love
Why you've already given up
See I know you've been hurt before
But I swear I'll give you so much more
I swear I'll never let you down
Cause I swear it's you that I adore
And I can't help myself baby
Cause I think about you constantly
and my heart gets no rest over you!

You can call me selfish
But all I want is your love
You can call me hopeless
Cause I'm hopelessly in love
You can call me unperfect
But who's perfect?
Tell me what do I gotta do
To prove that I'm the only one for you
What's wrong with being selfish?

I'll be taking up your time
Until the day I make you realize
That for your there could be no one else
I just gotta have you for myself
Baby I would take good care of you
No matter what it is you're going through
I'll be there for you when you're in need
Baby believe in me
If love was a crime
Then punish me
I would die for you
Cause I don't want to live without you
Oh what can I do?

Why do you keep us apart
Why won't you give up your heart
You know that we're meant to be together
Why do you push me away
All that I want is to give you love
Forever and ever and ever and ever

alone.

one by one, I'm losing those people I love.

I feel so alone.

thank you.

thank YOU for making me feel BETTER and for being there in times I needed you the most. : )

I'LL BE GONE FOR A WHILE

. :)

and i hope this makes you happy now. that the flame we had is burning out.

a successful relationship requires falling inlove many times, always with the SAME person. :)

SANA NGA GANITO =]

insensitive - jann arden

How do you cool your lips
After a summer’s kiss
How do you rid the sweat
After the body bliss
How do you turn your eyes
From the romantic glare
How do you block the sound
Of a voice you’d know anywhere

Oh, I really should have known
By the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes
Your casual good-byes
By the chill in your embrace
The expression on your face
That told me
Maybe You might have some advice to give
On how to be
insensitive


How do you numb your skin
After the warmest touch
How do you slow your blood
After the body rush
How do you free your soul
After you’ve found a friend
How do you teach your heart
It’s a crime to fall in love again

Oh, you probably won’t remember me
It’s probably ancient history
I’m one of the chosen few
Who went ahead and fell for you
I’m out of hope, I’m out of touch
I fell too fast, I feel too much
I thought that you might have
Some advice to give on how to be
Insensitive

=,(

r-e-g-r-e-t

i love you

and if giving up everything means telling you that I love you so much, you know I WILL. : )

Selfishly I'm in love with you
Cause I've searched my soul
and know that it's you. <3

almost over

at once, you look across a crowded room for no one in particular, just looking. Suddenly, you see that someone, but, oh, how many times you've seen that someone before. So why did your heart just skip a beat? Your eyes meet by mere coincidence, or is it? At that moment you both instantly know that the relationship between the two of you, will never be the same again. NEVER. "

party.

All tell me.

why do I get this strange feeling everytime our eyes meet? especially last night when I was feeling groggy and a lil bit drunk for obtaining 1 glass of red wine. As I seated at one corner beside the huge Christmas tree with wanting silence to take place for a short while, I got to ask my self if I'm really over you.

Suddenly, you came to me handling a cup of coffee showing how you really care. Out of silence, you asked if I'm okay. I wanted to answer you with: "YES I am.. thanks! :)" but I just smiled and grabbed the coffee instead.

You stared at me and went away but as you did, I can see from afar that you were still looking at me.Those odd stares reminded me of sweet memories of the past. However, I am COMPLETELY over you.

I love you... but only as a friend .. a special friend to be fair.

I don't want to confuse myself with same questions and issues. I know you still love me but you let me go. You weren't strong enough to fight for our LOVE.

Now, everything between US is over. : )

I'm HAPPIER now. I've finally given myself -- my everything -- to someone else.

blank HAS my life now. =]

f*ck off.

it doesn't have to be a main concern yet no matter how I try to keep it off my mind, it still keeps getting in. guess this won't ever stop and the best thing to do for now is... to stay away and stop stalking shit. Just when I thought everything's going well and that there's nothing to worry about. but the more I look on the positive side of a certain thing, I get nothing but a worse feeling in return. now, anyone, tell me. am I strong enough to fight this off when the only one that's telling me to hold on, is also the one's pushing me through the end, unintentionally.

God, I don't wanna be a hater. I wasn't born to be one nor dream of becoming one but same "shit" keeps getting in my nerves.

bLAh.

feels BLAH. seriously!

I don't want to conclude cause i've no idea on what's really goin' on...

Imeem.

bcoz im a girl - razy

Out of nothingness and boredom, I got to type my full name in Google's
search box and some of my accounts appeared from diverse
online-social-networking-site. Some are really old that I couldn't
even recall if I've ever had them. Facebook, friendster, multiply,
tagged, myspace, plurk, twitter, blogspot and IMEEM. I clicked on
Imeem and It's kinda weird to know how I used to like
old-school-songs before. I listened to them one-by-one and heard
my voice all of a sudden.
Funny how I sounded a lot different before compared now.

Saturday.

i LOVE this day for some reason : )

incomplete.

"So I can make believe I have everything

But I can't pretend that I don't see

That without you,

My life is incomplete"

x.X